This article is and isn’t related to Black Swan. It’s not about acting or awards. It was brought about, at least in part, by the recent revelation that professional dancer Sarah Lane was not given proper credit for her contributions as a dance double in Black Swan and that her performance was (inadvertently or otherwise) attributed to Natalie Portman. There’s a lot of debate surrounding the situation and I don’t want to contribute to it; but I think we can all agree that Lane deserved to be properly credited for her performance. I’ve read a lot of commentary on it and dancers have said that unless you are a dancer or have an understanding of ballet you won’t necessarily understand the gravity of Lane’s affront. For example, the fouettés in the black swan pas de deux may seem even just moderately difficult to the untrained eye, but most people won’t know that Sarah Lane executing them to the left is something a lot of dancers will strive for with few actually succeeding. Her performance was the result of her own natural ability paired with years of training. Basically, we might live in an age of instant gratification, but it’s impossible to become a ballet dancer in a year as the marketing scheme for Black Swan seemed to suggest.
But Black Swan wasn’t really about ballet. Whether or not Portman did the dancing doesn’t change her performance as an actress. Lane should have been given credit, but at least she’s being acknowledged now, even if she had to fight for that acknowledgment on her own. So now we get to the part where this article isn’t related to Black Swan.
One thing the situation did was remind me of the constant struggle for artists. If our arts aren’t ravenously popular in mainstream media it can be a huge trial, maybe even an impossibility, for us to make a career of it. So in the spirit of art I wanted to spotlight a few people who I think have selflessly gone above and beyond to contribute to the world of art even when such a small audience appreciates it.

Photograph courtesy of the Academy of Dance and Creative Arts (ADaCA)
Above is my sister, Chelsea Clow in a guest performance with the Academy of Dance and Creative Arts, a company founded by Russian dancers Julia Vorobieva and Konstantinev Dournev in Hunter, New York. My sister took her first dance class when she was about five years old; I joined not long after, but…let’s just say it didn’t take. I’ll spare you all the penguin costume and tap shoes. For Chelsea, though, it did take. In a big way. She never stopped and eventually she began training seriously, after eleven years of which she was invited to audition for her first company at eighteen. In between there were summer intensives at Julliard and the American Ballet Theatre (ABT) in New York as well as at Alonzo King’s LINES in San Francisco, not to mention awards and acknowledgments – yes, I’m bragging for her. I’m allowed; it comes with being a sister.

Photograph courtesy of the Academy of Dance and Creative Arts (ADaCA)
Though I’ve been watching her dance for most of our lives she continues to surprise me with what she’s capable of achieving and I’m immensely proud of her for having the determination and passion to pursue an artistic career even when such a small portion of our society acknowledges it. I don’t know that I would’ve found the courage to pursue my writing if I hadn’t grown up alongside her, watching her devote every single day to dance. Sometimes it’s beyond talent or ability; art is about devotion. She always had a natural ability, a lot of people have said so (and when you watch her dance it’s impossible not to think she must have been born with it), but she knew from the beginning that it wasn’t enough to just be good at it. She had to cultivate her talent, grow with it, and learn, learn a lot. She never gave up on dance and it never gave up on her. She has done and continues to do amazing things, for audiences big and small, for herself and for her art. She’s proven that not all of us artists care to be celebrities; we just want to be able to support ourselves as we endeavor to devote our lives to what we’re passionate about.

ArtEstilo gallery in San Miguel de Allende, Guanajuato, Mexio
Photograph courtesy of Berenice Para
Art is in a constant struggle to survive, but it isn’t working alone. Berenice Para, author of ArtFashion and the creative mind behind Sickening Beauty, is not only an artist of multiple mediums herself, but a woman devoted to the resurgence of arts obscured by mainstream media. Art is as relevant and regular in her life as the air she breathes. In October of last year she undertook her dream of opening an art gallery to share the work of local artists with the tourists in her home city of San Miguel de Allende in Guanajuato, Mexico. Her mother joined her as the helm of the business end while Bere interacted and coordinated with artists. Their gallery, ArtEstilo, opened in late January of this year after three months of negotiations, financial dealings and the hunt for the perfect location. After all their work they were forced to close ArtEstilo’s doors just recently due to financial pressure and the poor economic state.
“It was heartbreaking, humbling and discouraging,” Bere wrote to me when I asked her about the details of ArtEstilo’s short but passionate existence. “I admit I had a very rough time facing reality and accepting the consequences. There have been a lot of ‘could-haves’ and ‘would-haves’ running around in my brain and many things to figure out. Do I regret it? Not one bit. You see, if I hadn’t risked it, I would have always wondered what would’ve happened if I’d tried.”

Photograph courtesy of Berenice Para
I asked Bere what inspired her to start the gallery and she was kind enough to write up a bit about her past experience with art, her passion for it and, overall, how ArtEstilo came to be.
Art has always been a crucial part of my life, in one way or another. Since a very young age I was interested in Music, Literature and Art history. As I grew older I realized that many times, one work of Art leads you to the next. I found that mesmerizing and magical. One of my first strong experiences with Art occurred when I was sixteen, during a school trip to an Art exhibit at Mexico City’s Anthropology and History Museum. The National Gallery had lent part of its collection of Great Masters to that museum and they were showing them in Mexican soil for the first time. My breath was taken away by the sight of Rembrandt Van Rijn’s “Man in a turban”. When I looked in its eyes, I could feel the hairs on my arms standing up. It was electric. I was in the presence of beauty and I was contemplating the work of one of the greatest Artists in human history. It was like being able to somehow connect with a person who had lived hundreds of years before my time and it made me look at the world differently. I was overjoyed.
As years went by and I struggled to find something I was passionate about which would also enable me to make a living, it dawned on me that an Art gallery was the perfect way to not only fulfill my own desires and make my dreams come true, but it was also an ideal opportunity to provide local Artists with a space to make themselves visible and gain a following. Most of the Artists who show at San Miguel are foreigners, so I was really interested in the possibility of dealing only with Mexican Artists. Up to a few months ago I had a blog, ArtFashion (it’s still up on Blogger, but I’m currently not uploading new posts), through which I began realizing that my love for Art was even bigger than I thought. I suppose that blogging about Art was also a huge factor in my decision to open an Art gallery.
It’s so important to tell people about new Artists and show them new things! In this day and age most people are very numb to new and exciting forms of expression. We tend to think we have ‘seen it all’ or that ‘nothing new is going on’. There is a huge lack of wonder, so little room for surprise. I feel it’s crucial to remind people that as long as the world turns and humans inhabit it, there will always be something new to be surprised by. There is beauty even in the most unexpected places and Art is not trivial, it’s more than entertainment, because it is life itself. It’s what we feel, what we wish for and what we hope for, it expresses where we are as a group and also individually. All Artists are speaking not only for themselves through their work, but also for the rest of mankind.
This is just a snippet of the insight Berenice shared with me, for which I’m immensely grateful. If you want to connect with Bere you can find her on Facebook, Twitter and her current blog project Sickening Beauty.
My goal with this article, and I hope I’ve achieved it, was simply to stop and acknowledge art and to perhaps remind anyone reading who may have forgotten that there’s an entire world of art, artists and art enthusiasts out there. They’re devoting themselves wholly to the resurgence of art and they deserve, as everyone does deserve, credit and respect for their hard work. Thank you so much for reading!












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With this article you have just officially become my hero. *hugs tightly*
Aww, really? Thank you so much, Karen! I’ve been struggling with it, feeling like it just wasn’t good enough, so that really means the world to me. *hugs back!*
No really, it is such an amazing piece. And it gives me a positive jolt to see that people do appreciate artistry in this day and age. Probably more than I realize but it’s good to have a wonderful writer such as yourself around to remind me of it
Thank you so much! That makes me feel good because my motivation for writing was, essentially, a feeling that there isn’t enough appreciation for the arts. That others would really know where I was coming from with it is inspiring. It makes me feel like we can really reacquaint people with the importance and beauty of art! (:
Thank you so much for this piece of art dear, because your writing IS art. I was very moved reading your words, and so grateful to know you. You have sensitivity about you, an eye for the undercurrents in life, and I love that about you. It is so great that you took a happening story and put your own spin on it, grounding it and then broadening our horizons, making the topic relevant to us. Art and artists are such an important part of life, and attention should be paid. My heart goes out to Bere, I love that she went for it all though it is a tough business, following her heart, like your amazing sister (stunning photos!). Knowing, owning and cultivating our talents is about nurturing our soul, and if you can make a living doing it, or at least try, that is so aweinspiring. Thank you for being you.
Love, Anika
Thank you, Anika, so much! I’m thrilled that you enjoyed the post and your sweet words are just too much. (: I was so happy when Bere agreed to take part in it because it broke my heart when she told me she had to close the gallery and I thought she deserved a lot of recognition for the effort she put into it. It’s people like her that will help art get recognized more by making it available for people to discover. It’s amazing how people can make so much money in some arts, like film, and then others live in virtual poverty for other arts. But that people push through and take strides to keep art alive is something that should definitely be praised.
Thanks again, sweets, for all your endless support! xo
What a GREAT piece of writing Casee!! I agree with Anika: your writing IS Art. It’s very rare that a writer has the capacity to create a personal connection with a current topic, such as the ‘Black Swan controversy’. It takes a lot of intelligence and a masterful management of emotions. You have succeeded in every way.
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Chelsea’s story touched my heart. The fact that she has followed her life-long passion in such a steady manner, devouting all her time to training and working and perfecting her technique, deserves all the respect and support! Dancing ballet is a very tough, often overlooked profession, when in fact it’s one of the most relevant because it reminds us constantly of mankind’s capacity for creating beauty and portraying it with our bodies.
Lastly, I thank you FROM THE CORE OF MY BEING for your support. The lines you wrote about me are forever engraved in my heart and they mean the world to me. <3<3 As long as there are people like you, nothing is lost in the world.
Anika: THANKS for your kind words of encouragement and support also. You know you're a rockstar!
Love you to bits,
Bere
Thank you so much, Bere! You’re so sweet. I don’t know about my writing, but I’m at least happy that I had the wherewithal to put it out there even if I wasn’t sure how it would be received. It’s your efforts that should be applauded because you’ve done so much to keep art alive and instill a passion for it in other people. I personally would be living in such oblivion when it comes to art if not for you and the way you’ve incorporated art into ArtFashion; I’ve learned and experienced a lot and I think even that has broadened my understand of what art truly is. (:
Such a wonderful and in depth look at artists. It’s a fight to be the best but for different reasons than mainstream western culture teaches us. Your sister is beautiful!
Thank you so much, I’m glad you enjoyed the post. I definitely agree with you, it’s a struggle and most of the time it’s one that goes unobserved by a lot of people.
what a thought-provoking post. i’ve been following the black swan controversy as well, and i am almost chastising myself for being so naive as to think that it was all natalie – i know how hard dance is first-hand, but i allowed myself get swept into what i do now consider some false advertising from the people behind black swan. but the point of your post goes beyond that and it is well-taken. nice job!
Thank you, Diane! I thought the marketing definitely suggested that as well, so I’m glad I’m not the only one. I think more than anything they disrespected the difficulty of dance and in doing that they really contributed to the all-too-popular idea that ballet is somehow easy or that anyone can do it. It’s unfortunate, but I’m glad I was able to try to give a bit more insight into art overall through the blog. (:
If our arts aren’t ravenously popular in mainstream media it can be a huge trial, maybe even an impossibility, for us to make a career of it. This is one of the many reasons why I’m not doing music anymore. It is so scary to have to come out of college and think, wow, I may not have a job. You don’t know if you’ll get hired and you can spend years striving to get picked up by a label. I know so many people who have gone to college for Musical Theatre, have gone to New York and tried out for so many shows and have never gotten casted. It’s absolutely exhausting being in the arts, so when you do make it big, you want to be recognized for what you do.
Your sister looks so beautiful and I’m so excited for her that she has had so many opportunities! To be able to perform at Juilliard would be a dream come true.
Thank you for this, Genny! I’m sorry you’re not doing music anymore, but I think it’s definitely important to do what you’re comfortable with now. Who knows what will happen down the road, you know? People very often go to college for one thing and wind up doing something entirely different. And you basically said everything I was trying to say with this post in that last sentenced. I think people forget how difficult it is to be in arts beyond film. I mean, not that film isn’t an art but let’s face it, it’s a pretty wealthy art. Ballet, musical theatre, writing, painting, etc., so many of these arts don’t get much mainstream attention so they don’t have the same kind of revenue coming in with which to support itself and its artists. That’s when it really makes me sad to see people dismiss things like ballet, because they don’t realize that by dismissing it they’re contributing to the difficulty these artists are suffering.
And thank you, about my sister. (: She’s amazing! Haha.
I completely agree with everything you’ve said in this post. It is VERY difficult having a career in the arts, and I am on the more “technical” aspect of it. These photos are absolutely stunning, and your sister is beautiful. People do not always appreciate the arts for what they are worth, they are unfortunately taken at face value most times. There is nothing I love more than spending time enjoying art in all of it’s glorious forms.
Thank you so much for your comment on my lighting design for the Treasure Island ballet. Our dance teacher & my good friend actually made the adaptation her self, and wrote the entire ballet. It was an honor to work with her on it, and I was so happy to be able to share my work as well as hers with everyone.
Thank you, Kirstin! I know a lot of people who think that because they don’t know anything about certain arts they have no business enjoying them, but I say the best way to learn about them is to immerse yourself in them. And artists will always appreciate the support, I’m sure. It’s amazing that if more people took a vested interest in art it would make careers perhaps a little more attainable – or at least it would make life for artists a little easier!
I love that your friend adapted that ballet on her own! That’s so cool. I love seeing how people use dance to tell different stories, especially a story like that with a pre-established ideal. Seeing how they make it their own is always interesting. I’m so glad you shared the pictures on your blog!
Wow! Your sister is amazing! You’re right: You definitely get to brag!
“But Black Swan wasn’t really about ballet. Whether or not Portman did the dancing doesn’t change her performance as an actress. ”
This was my exactly point I made a few days ago on Jezebel. When I saw Black Swan, I thought, “Oh wow, what a great movie!” Yes, it had good dancing, but the movie wasn’t about dancing. I’m really surprised how much this has spiraled out of control. Benjamin Millepied shouldn’t have said anything in response to Lane’s comments. Shouldn’t he of all people know that it wasn’t Natalie? It’s crazy and why are we still talking about this? LOL
In any case, I do not doubt that Lane is a talented artist but I am surprised this is in the news.
Haha, thanks Courtney! I’ll take any opportunity to brag about her.
I know what you mean! Of course Lane had a legitimate gripe with the studio and I love that she stood up and demanded her due, but I don’t understand how Natalie became such a topic in the controversy. So many gossip blogs were questioning whether or not she deserved the Oscar, which just doesn’t make any sense because it was an Oscar for acting – and especially considering that there wasn’t that much dancing in the movie to begin with. The Academy obviously didn’t judge it based on that. I feel like all the drama was just the media trying to make a splash and it didn’t help anyone. But then, the DVD came out on Tuesday so I read comments on articles where people were saying it was a publicity stunt. I can’t even imagine. If it was, they had a pretty terrible marketing team!
I wholeheartedly agree . Being a ballet dancer of many years myself, I can truly appreciate the beauty and the hard work that Lane put in to make that movie more realistic. Nobody could bring that type of artistry and excellence in a couple of months. I think that many artists these days are highly under-appreciated for their talent and effort. Creating beauty is really taking a part of oneself and presenting it to the world; this takes an extreme amount of courage and vulnerability, and for people to just brush artists and art off, it really shows a lack of understanding and appreciation for others. Thanks for this wonderful post Casee.
Thank you, Candice! I’m so glad you appreciated the post and I agree with everything you said. It’s disappointing that they tried to sell Lane’s hard work as just a couple of months’ practice for Portman because they really disrespected the art by doing that. As if it wasn’t enough just to deny Lane the credit! I definitely contributed to the way ballet and a lot of other arts suffer in the shadow of more mainstream, popular art forms. I’m glad Lane was able to use her voice and draw attention to the situation, at least. Hopefully people will realize now how much more respect ballet deserves. (:
this was SUCH a refreshing read. i’m reading ‘the hours’ at the moment – not sure if you’re familiar with it, but part of it is about virginia woolf creating ‘mrs dalloway’; it got me thinking how we take these great masterpieces for granted. we never really encourage people to give themselves up and create. i think dancing is one of the least recognised fields of art – until recently, that is, with shows like sytycd and dancing with the stars showing how easy professional dancers make it look. it takes so much courage to create; let alone create without credit.
perhaps we’ve become too used to seeing talented people on the TV that it becomes ordinary. i think people need to get out and see the people behind the creations to appreciate them. by seeing a poet recite or a dancer warm up…it just seems more real, somehow.
sorry for my rambley response! i really enjoyed reading this
XO
Aww, thank you for this comment. And never apologize for being rambley. I’m the queen of rambley!
I’ve actually got The Hours on my to-read list and I quite love the movie. I know what you mean; we all move so quickly in our day-to-day, I sometimes think it takes a special personality to be able to stop and recognize the little – yet important and beautiful – things. And you’re completely right, it’s easy to be duped into believing things are easy when we see so much talent on TV and in the movies. Especially in the movies, too, because given such artists as stunt and dance doubles we’re supposed to believe what we see on the screen is one person. Experiencing different arts firsthand can definitely give you a renewed insight into the difficulty behind them! (:
Casee, your writing is so thought-provoking and I always look forward to your latest post. I’m constantly learning about something interesting from your blog! Thank you for sharing about your sister (who sounds so talented- I would love to see her dance!) and about Bere. I love what she said about not regretting her decision to open an art gallery because at least she took the risk and followed her passions! Anyways, I’m working my way backwards through your archives, so don’t be surprised to see some comments on old posts popping up here and there =)
Finally getting the chance to reply to this! Thank you again so much for your lovely comment, Nnenna! It really makes my heart soar to know people have such an interest in my blog. It can sometimes be hard to keep up and people like you give me a renewed vigor to try! (: I was so happy that Bere could contribute, and that was my favorite part of her dialogue as well. It’s inspiring to know that people will really go to such lengths for arts, regardless of the outcome! It’s times like that when you realize the real success is in finding the courage to try.
Thanks again, and certainly comment as you like on any other entries! I love o know peoples’ thoughts!
What a wonderful piece of writing. I marked it and came back to read it when I had nothing on my mind … ‘coz I tend to rush through the posts during the day. I am so glad I didn’t do that here. You sister is beautiful and I have a special place for dancers in my heart. I think I must have been one in my past life … And you write from you heart but not with haste. There is a sense of compassion, depth and sensitivity in your writing. Clearly you were born to do this even if the path seems harder at time …
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Thank you for coming back to it, Tanvi! I appreciate that so much. I certainly know how it can be when you’re skimming through posts and one is…well, quite as long as this one. I worried with the length of it that it might intimidate readers. I’m very glad to know it didn’t! And thank you so much for your sweet words. I did put a lot of my heart into this and knowing it was received by the reader makes it a true success. (:
“Sometimes it’s beyond talent or ability; art is about devotion.” Yes! This is the reason I am so in awe of ballerinas. The commitment and dedication is incomparable, especially for an art form that is appreciated by so few. But, you’re right – most artists’ talents go unrecognized, and I feel a deep respect for people who can devote their lives to such a difficult and often thankless career.
Thank you so much for your comment, Marissa! It’s difficult when you see so many people disregarding the arts, especially when you have a deep respect for it yourself. This post proved to be truly inspiring because so many who commented understand that and appreciate art – it makes you feel like there really is a vast community who keeps art alive, and I’m so glad to know a small portion of it! (:
I did read about Sarah Lane not receiving credit for her work in Black Swan but I also read that Natalie Portman did a lot of her own stuff. It left me a little confused as to what to believe but I think overall even if Sarah contributed very little she should still be credited. That’s just plain unfair! I don’t think Natalie mentioned her in the Oscar acceptance speach right/ Probably not since she didn’t even mention Mila Kunis!
I love the photos of your sister, Chelsea. She looks so elegant and I’m sure being able to watch her perform is incredible. I also hope that Berenice Para continues to update her blog since she loves it so much!
I really enjoyed reading through this post and feel it was one of your best yet!
Thank you so much, Jen! I’m really glad you enjoyed it, and thanks for coming back to read it. I know you’ve been super busy so that means a lot. (:
It is confusing, and Natalie actually had a second dance double too so all the percentages people have been throwing around aren’t accurate. Though I’m sure she did do some of the dancing. The thing is that supposedly there wasn’t even that much dancing to begin with! Here’s a video (it’s just thirty-some seconds long) of a principal ballerina, Gillian Murphy, doing the fouetté turns for the black swan pas de deux (that’s essentially the biggest part of the show, where the star dances with her partner) in a production of Swan Lake. That’s part of the big dance sequence in Black Swan and those specifically are the turns Sarah Lane did (but she did them in the other direction, which not many people can do). That’s what makes it frustrating; girls will train for years to be able to do those turns and for the studio to let people believe it was Natalie is sort of like telling them that anybody can do it, you know? Not that it’s Natalie’s fault, it was just unfair marketing.
But anyway, I haven’t heard anything about it again since last week which, ironically, was the DVD release. It makes me wonder if they were just trying to drum up hype for the DVD. It’s amazing what studios will go through!